We never seeing each others...
We agrees to be a couple just using phone types 3310..
When we for the first time became official my focus wasn’t for you.We break up officially and its okay for me because my focus wasn’t for you.
and now, its time for me to feel what you felt when I'm ignoring you because your focus wasn't for me..you have another person..
its became sadder when you send third person which is your "another person" to remind me that you're her's..
when I'm slowly forget bout you, suddenly you came with more love for me starting with nonsense question.. "do you know how to make an assignment?"..Me,"????".. but I ignoring you because my madness towards you are the fullest in me, not because you are not my focus..
we stop messaging because I cannot forgive you and you give up..I MISS You soo much.. but my ego stop me from message you..
next, you started message me again also started with nonsense question.."How can I applied PTPTN?"".. Me,"???".
we messages non-stop, suddenly I over talk about his "another person..".. he beg for forgiveness from me but I just can't because I feel so hurt from that accident.. we stop message..
I looked onto myself and think that actually part of it was because of me because of my focus was not for him. now, I MISS YOU a lot from before.. but my ego was so high...
For a few days I fought with my egos and I start message him saying that I have forgive him and we became normal, message each other.. for a few months you stop messaging me.. I stalked you anywhere.. and I just created social account just to know bout you.. just YOU.. and I found out that you coupling with me just because you feel lonely.. you couple with "another person" also because you feel lonely.. you message me back because you feel lonely.
and then the biggest secret that you keep from me was in your twitter account.. when I request to follow you. You ignoring me.. at first I'm okay. but I got to know that he was flirting with another girl at his university. now I know the reason why he ignoring my following my request..
then I tried to forgot him, tried to stop myself from stalking him by deleting my instagram, twitter, wechat and facebook.
I make new facebook because I want to stay connected with my old friend and he request to be my friend. I don't want to show that I want to stay away from him, so I added him.. I format all numbers in my phonebook so I can't find his number.. I feel so stupid because only me thought that we are in love but it was really opposite from what I thought.. I slowly can accept that he was not for me.. but then he message me again also with nonsense question.. "Have you applied maidam..?".. hmm.. what the fish now I remembering him again!!!... when we can stop play this hide and seek??.. can you give me detailed bout your feelings?? can you tell me hows your feeling with your colleague? can you stop make me confuse.... arghhh... before, he has send me a song that so romantic but I totally misunderstand that song.. it actually to tell me that I only a girl in his dream not in real life.. maybe because we never see each other till now.. I love him, a NONSENSE BOY.. but I
-Che Syahira-
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